Monday, February 2, 2015

the present moment // blankets and snuggles

Currently: We got hit with a mystery fever on late Friday evening that the boys just haven't been able to shake. Linus started first on Friday night. Then Bigfoot followed suit soon after on Saturday afternoon. The boys have been planted on this little couch of ours that I honestly can't wait to replace, but I'm thankful we have it so we can keep on keeping on in the snuggle department.

That's what this mystery fever has brought us: lots o' snuggle time, lots o' mama time (You'd think they'd be over me!), and lots of reading, kisses, temperature taking struggles, medicine, lukewarm baths, blankets, LeapFrog, pillows, and a movie. 

Confession: I'm not a fan of mystery fevers. There's so much unknown and that just makes me anxious. What if it's something serious that needs to be checked? They seem fine, but are they really? And all the other mama-thoughts that can easily start to swirl and unravel me.
Loving: Mystery fever has also brought some really sweet togetherness. Since they are suffering, they've chosen to suffer together and it's the cutest. The sweetest. And, makes me love them even more (if that's even possible!). Also made me think of what Pope Francis said:
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In their little way, they are helping each other through this mystery fever. I see how they draw energy from each other. When one is down the other tries to cheer him up and vice versa. I'm glad I captured their love and togetherness during this little time of suffering. Poor babies just aren't feeling well. But being together does feel good.
Thinking about: As much as I can easily complain about being tied down to said couch only to get up 100 or so times to get whatever little thing that they may be requesting at any little moment, I really can't. To be honest, I've loved the slowness that has come. As much as I hate that they aren't feeling well, I have loved holding them, tending to them, giving them the hugs and snuggles that reassure them that everything is going to be okay
Thankful: Normally, this wouldn't be the case. I tend to the side of being gripe-tastic. All I can say about that is there has been lots of grace around here. Lots of it. Just as much, or more (let's be honest), than all the snuggles, blankets, requests, medicine, pillows, naps, and fussiness. This truth that has been so obvious makes me sooooo incredibly thankful! Andddd I also kind of love that I was able to watch Sound of Music with the boys yesterday.Pretty sure they kind of loved it. I chalk that up as a Parenting/Mama-WIN!
Also thankful for our friend's health. He is out of the hospital after almost a full weeks stay. He is doing well and they were able to confidently say that he experienced a sort of perfect storm of poor sleep, dehydration, diet changes, exercise changes, and stress that made this happen. Thankfully all the tests that he took to come to this conclusion shared good health and that's also something to be so grateful for.

There are always so many things to be thankful for. Everyday. Whether we think of them or not. But, again, this community that I'm a part of online and where we are through our family and friends we had hundreds of faithfuls praying for him. The Body of Christ is so good and so true. Something I was so grateful for during high school and college and am now seeing in a new light as a young married mother. It's beautiful.

So, thank you for your prayers and your faithfulness. Thank you for saying yes to the little things. Because more and more I see how these little things define His Will and goodness for us. Every little thing.
Pondering: Lots!

Thinking about friends I'm blessed with and friendship in general. Good and holy friendship that carries me. Carries us! Meets us where we are. Makes me and our little family better.

Prior to Mary from Better than Eden wrote this post on friendship there have been a number of posts on the topic swirling in my head. Throw in two sick babies and I'm at peace with my receiving an over-abundant amount of snuggles and snot as much as my swirling thoughts itch to get typed. In due time they'll be written and shared. But today is not that day.

Also thinking about Abandonment to Divine Providence by Fr. Jean-Pierre de Caussade.
“There is not a moment in which God does not present Himself under the cover of some pain to be endured, of some consolation to be enjoyed, or of some duty to be performed. All that takes place within us, around us, or through us, contains and conceals His divine action.”
― Jean-Pierre de Caussade, Abandonment to Divine Providence
“In the state of abandonment the only rule is the duty of the present moment. In this the soul is light as a feather, liquid as water, simple as a child, active as a ball in receiving and following all the inspirations of grace. Such souls have no more consistence and rigidity than molten metal. As this takes any form according to the mould into which it is poured, so these souls are pliant and easily receptive of any form that God chooses to give them. In a word, their disposition resembles the atmosphere, which is affected by every breeze; or water, which flows into any shaped vessel exactly filling every crevice. They are before God like a perfectly woven fabric with a clear surface; and neither think, nor seek to know what God will be pleased to trace thereon, because they have confidence in Him, they abandon themselves to Him, and, entirely absorbed by their duty, they think not of themselves, nor of what may be necessary for them, nor of how to obtain it.”
― Jean-Pierre de Caussade, Abandonment to Divine Providence
These two quotes and just the whole stinking book make the duty in which we are presently called to seem so easy! I love him for that. The present moment. Nothing more. Nothing less. Just here. His words speak so much to my mama-heart. Share so much wisdom that clicks and makes my little duties come alive.

I read this book back in college. Reading it now as a wife and mother sheds new light on everything I do. It's kind of amazing. You should definitely give it a go if you've never read his works before. The simplicity and profoundness is encouraging. His wisdom in beautifully nudging us into the present also is one of the best arms to engage when battling anxiety. In other words, in my time of tending to my little ones while sick, his words have settled my stirring heart.
Confirmation: Mid-post I took the boys to the doctor. It has been confirmed that we do, in fact, have a mystery fever on our hands. It could be the flu or some other virus with a name I've never heard of. All which will run their course. Poor babies.

Offering our sick days for your intentions and some of our own. How is your Monday going? Pray it's been a good start filled with lots of coffee and present moment awesomeness! 

Linking-up with Gina and Jenny. <3>

18 comments:

  1. Oh man! While my little guy doesn't have a fever, he's been hit hard with some kind of cold. It's been a rough weekend for us as well. Lots of cartoons, and books, and snuggles on the couch and our bed. I'm even wondering if he's got an ear infection because he refuses to fall asleep laying down. Oh, and two nights ago we found that a second set of molars are trying to push through.

    Solidarity with the sick babies, sister! Praying that your littles recover quickly from their fevers.

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    1. Gosh, I feel like so many families are getting hit again! It's like it comes in waves knocking us all down! Praying for your sweet boy! I know that's hard, especially the not sleeping well part. The two year old molars have been upsetting my almost 2 yo too. Love all this combos that make their way into our lives to mix things up. Hope you're getting good rest and little bambino is doing well too. *Solidarity*

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  2. Oh! You sweet little loves - hope you all are 100% soon, they look so sweet sick though ;)

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    1. Thanks, Christy! They really have been pretty sweet. Honestly, I feel like this fever has calmed them down just enough that they aren't all over the place injuring themselves. I see this as a definite perk especially since it's been raining and cold out.

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  3. I'm adding that book to our women's group possibilities list! It sounds awesome. I hope they feel better soon. If it helps, the fever is a good thing. It means their little bodies are fighting something and doing a good job at it. You are such a good mom to them when sick. I want to be like that more! And thank you for the link…so glad you liked it!

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    1. Add it! It's a great book! Big but so full of wisdom that makes the present moment come alive like I haven't seen elsewhere. While St. Therese emphasizes the little things, he emphasizes the tiniest of tiny things all being part of an intricate plan that we just have to breath our way through. And, I'm definitely not always mom of the year during illness time (especially when my husband is ill - I'm pretty lame) but, like I said, I'm chalking it up to a ton of grace. Most likely all the graces from recent confession and Mass that I attended alone for the first time in 3 years. Talk about being able to be present. A whole new world of an experience for me. But, grace. Lots of grace.

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    Mother, Like Daughter just ran a long post about how to take care of your kids when they are sick. And you are doing all the right, good, wise things. Keep it up you wonderful mother.

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    1. Thanks, Ann-Marie! I need to go check out this series. I can't believe I missed it! But then again I can since I haven't been keeping up even with my little blog much less all the blogs I enjoy. Thanks for your encouragement though. It means a lot!

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    1. Thank you, Erica! Praying my oldest will break his fever tonight! This has just been crazy!

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  6. You are the best momma! Seriously! I hope everyone is back to normal now and that you can be at peace. Love you!

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    1. And you are the nicest! I'm praying for that too. You never realize how nice your routine is until it's just not possible because of sickness. Love you friend and pray you are feeling well too!

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  7. Hope you all are feeling better soon! There is a sweetness to all that snuggle time!

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    1. Thank you, Rita! I agree! There really really is. I haven't been this snuggled in a long time. It's good but my little introvert heart needs some snuggle space too. ;) Praying they get better!

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  8. So sorry the boys have been sick, but extra snuggles, The Sound of Music and brotherly love are pretty good trade offs.

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    1. Thanks, Jenny! And, yes they really have been such great trade-offs. Watching the Sound of Music with them kind of had my heart because I sort of love that movie. :)

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  9. You have such a beautiful way of capturing your days and your heart. And the quotes you're sharing! LOVE! I need to find that book. How are the boys now?

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    1. Hey! Thanks! The saints and faithful before us are such treasure chests of encouragement for my days! And the boys are snotty but good today. My oldest finally broke his fever Saturday morn. Almost a full week of 100-104 temps. I put in a notice for a day off, but I'm not sure how it's going to happen. lol Anyways, thank you! I'll be over here recovering all week from our last week. lol

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