Lent came and went this year and that's okay. It was all okay. In fact, is was better than okay. It was good. All of it was good. Even the not so good was good because we were together, trying, and putting one foot in front of the other.
What was so amazing is, even though I started feeling a little down towards the end, He met us where we were anyways. And it was good.
We were getting hit time after time with one virus or another, I had a feeling we were going to miss the Triduum Masses and my heart was sinking as each day passed us by.
The Wednesday before Holy Thursday arrived and my oldest was getting over the stomach bug while my youngest got hives after eating asparagus. Since that time, his hives have not gone away. They've come and gone for almost a full week now, which is just crazy-town. Needless to say, we did not go and spread our tummy bug germs. We also did not bring the itchy and irritable two year old to Easter Vigil.
But. Yes, there is a but. We did make it to Easter Sunday Mass. We managed to all stay mostly healthy (the youngest was still sporting the magical hives that made it their business to disappear only to reappear in all the places). But, come Sunday, off to Mass we went and I was excited!
Only, we didn't get there in time to find a seat in the sanctuary. Again, my heart sank. I wanted all the beauty that was to be had in every corner of church through word, song, and view that day. I wanted it all. Then something in me resigned and encouraged our little family to make our way to the gym for the overflow Mass. In my head, all I heard was *womp womp* but in my heart there was a little voice saying Trust.
Oh friends, how Jesus met me in my prideful resignation! It was as if He was saying, Come little heart. Have you so little trust?
I walked into the mostly empty gym, where each basketball hoop was turned into a white pot filled with sweet white flowers. The alter was at the center towards the back dressed beautifully. The choir was set and ready to go and brought me to tears from all the beauty coming from their hearts. The pulpit was dressed and surrounded by more beautiful white lilies. The aisles, the colors, the resounding voices that made me feel like I was listening to all the angels in heaven, and just all the effort towards beauty and goodness were there. It was the most beautiful thing ever! It really was!
See, I walked in sure that I was going to see a random screen on display with a ton of chairs split by an aisle on a basketball court. What I came into was a small sanctuary ready to celebrate His Resurrection. And while Mass on a screen is still Mass and still wonderful, this preparation was a gift my heart didn't know it needed.
It reminded me of a priest when I was on a day retreat looking for a garden to sit, pray, and reflect in. I was determined on finding a beautiful garden. I knew they had many on the grounds. I asked a passing priest to point me in the right direction.
He smiled the biggest smile, looked straight into my soul and said, Look around us. There are flowers everywhere!
Yes, Lord. There are flowers everywhere. Today and on that Easter Sunday. Thank you for every last one of them.
Now, onto our day and all. the. memories!
Family photo after Mass. The bow ties weren't easy to get on, but stayed on with mostly no problemos after. Mama-win!
My brother and his girlfriend spent the morning to afternoon with us too. So nice when we all get to go to Mass together. I know the boys love having them around.
Easter baskets from the grandparents!
After Holy Spirit and His Goodness helped me out of myself, this whole season proved to be so very fruitful. I'm thankful, humbled, and so very grateful for His Perfect Love, for all He has done for us and continues to do for us, and for the seasons that come and go, giving us all the opportunities to grow in love and wisdom.
Beautiful insight, beautiful family.. Love y'all!!ReplyDelete
Thanks, Karen! Love you back!! <3Delete
Amanda! This is a beautiful post! You have a very beautiful family! So much of holiness is just like you said, letting go of our own will, and embracing His!! God bless you this Eastertide!ReplyDelete
Thank you, Maureen! Your right! So many saints make holiness seem so simple and yet the littlest things for me can be so hard! Thankful for grace! And, Happy Eastertide to you and your family! :)Delete
Love this so much! You guys have had one illness after another this year and yet you still remain so hopeful and joyful. It's so beautiful. And love the cascarones. I actually had no idea what they were!ReplyDelete
Thanks, Mary! And, gosh we really have! It's nice for someone else to say it because most time I feel like a wimp for thinking so. All of it happening during Lent helped me keep some focus. That little bit was what I clung to. I wonder of our sweet Mother Church knew what she was doing when she paired Lent near sick season? lol Probably not considering world-wide and such but it works here in Texas :) And yay for cascarones! I grew up with them and they have my heart for all the fun and celebratory goodness they always bring. Confetti always makes for a happy time!Delete
<3 Happy Easter, my friend.ReplyDelete
My 4th had hives once, and our ped told me that in young kids, it is usually a reaction to a virus and not an allergy. Has the little guy also had a tummy bug like big brother? When my little guy was 2ish, he had thrown up once or twice, then the hives showed up. It was so odd. Hope he's over it soon!!
Happy Easter to you! <3Delete
Yah, he had a stomach bug the week prior but nothing since. He started itching 15 minutes after eating the asparagus. So, who knows? I think they are finally starting to slow down though! Thankfully!!!! Hives are foreign to me.
This is beautiful. I hope everyone is feeling better very, very soon.ReplyDelete
Thanks, Ann-Marie! We are on the up and praying we stay that way for at least a month! My sanity could use a break lolDelete
Those pictures of you and your boys cracking cascarones are the best. So happy that y'all had such a wonderful weekend. <3 JoannaReplyDelete
Yay! Thanks, Joanna! I think I even may have an extra dozen hiding somewhere that we may just need to bring out soon. The weekend really did end up being so nice!Delete
Love the bow ties! Looks like a beautiful day!!ReplyDelete
Thank you! It really was a beautiful day! And the bowties were from my mother-in-law. So perfect! I'm just glad they left them on long enough to grab a picture or two!Delete
Amanda, this is such a sweet post. Thank you for sharing. "There are flowers everywhere." <-- So lovely. And those confetti photos are just. the. BEST!!ReplyDelete
Aimee! Thank you!!! And seriously, when that priest told me that, goodness, I kind of just stopped and plopped on the grass with my journal and bible lol A lesson I am re-learning time and time and time again!Delete
The boys are simply adorable in those ties!!! My cousins are Mexican and they do that same tradition on Easter with the confetti, I want to try it sometime because it looks so fun!ReplyDelete
Thank you, Patty!!! You should try it! They really are so fun and festive and all things celebratory! You can never go wrong with cracking open a little egg-tomb filled with confetti fun!Delete
That photo of you and your husband is just the best! Glad that the Lord brought LIGHT to your Easter! ;)ReplyDelete
Thank you, Laurel! Gosh, that Light was much needed. I was so sour. Thankful for His Mercy, Love, and knowing me better than I'll ever know myself!Delete